I have decided on what to get him...

I am buying a mug and writting him a poem! Easy peasy!
Enjoy your Valentine's Weekend

xxx

Valentines is coming up...

...and I am dead broke!

I don't know what to do. I promise I didn't spend too much this month, God is my witness. I really wanted to get him this other Timberland boot he really needed I actually mean "wanted". Those things are gonna leave a hole in my pocket. I think I will buy them for his birthday in March. I mean then I can combine the birthday and valentine gift together, yes? Maybe not. *sigh*

I was thinking....nah let me not. (yeh exactly what you are thinking, good idea but..)

I want a cheap good idea that doesn't involve money. Flip! This is gonna be harder than I thought. I know he is getting me something and I am gonna feel bad not giving him anything unless I consider something which is what I really don't wanna end having to consider...Argh!

Ok, so my man and I have dated for two complicated years and known each other for 3. We dated in 2007 broke up in 2008 and dated again in 2009 till to date. What happened is a long sad story which i will probably speak about in another post. So, neh, during the times we dated we always seemed to break up (you know the small fights and then the girl screams "its over" then the break up lasts for two days then we kiss and make up?) around our birthdays and valentines. so we never really bought each other gifts around those times coz there was no need to.

Now there is no sign of us breaking up for Valentines! What do I do coz it had become tradition to break up during special days. Maybe he has forgotten.. Do I remind him?.. lol. Hint for a small break when the 13 of Feb hits!

What do ya'll have planned? Maybe I can steal from your ideas or maybe one of ya'll can steal from mine, breaking up is easy! Just kiddin :)

Things, Thoughts and other Things

Well now the tooth has been removed. Been 2 weeks already. Its way better but I was taking some crazy bum pain killers (love the stuff, it makes me feel high). And i had stitches on the hole (wisdon tooth). Yes stitches! The doc said the hole was too big she had to put 6 stitches. Painfull? Yes. Had to sit in the queue to see the dentist for a good 4 hours. Mr. Boyfriend skipped work to take me there. Now thats a good man. While waiting there was a girl my age that went in and she was screaming like no man's business. I freaked out and I wanted to poop in my skirt coz I was scared it was gonna hurt. When she got out she was still screaming and I told boyfriend "Please dont let them kill me! They gonna kill me! Why are you letting them kill me?!" He assured me evrything was gonna be ok, and well he was right. I didnt even flinch *applause*. I am very scared of pain. Call me chicken.



I got a puppy. A chihauhua (awwwwwwwww). She is so cute and so small. She is a "Tea-cup Chihuahua" I love her to bits and so do the girls (my sister and my baby girl). We named her Vanilla. Why? Coz we wanted too?! We wrote down a number of names and we picked them out of the hat. The original one we picked up was "Missy", the girls liked that one but since I didnt like that one, we repicked the names and missy came out first again. Sooooo, since I am the oldest I decided to manupilate the situation and we chose Vanilla. It suits her, and its a unique name. Everyone is in love with her (friends and all o' em). Flip! still have to potty train her though!! This is not her but she looks something like this but she a bit bigger. She is cute , even though cleaning up the poo sucks


I honestly have been considering losing weight but with people around me that love their food its a bit too hard to do. The only exercise I get is walking to my "pick-up-place" to go to work, which is 10min away from where i stay and going up the stairs at work. And besides healthy food doesnt taste nice. Well unless Jamie Oliver cooks it. I dont know what I am gonna do. Im a size 36... Yes I would love to be a 30 and my friend's wedding is in October. ARGHH. I dont have time to go to the gym. There is just so many other things to do. Ok we will talk about this weight thing another time, let me finish this slice of cheese cake first.



So, I really like Corinne Bailey Rae. I love the soulfullness of her music and she has beautiful voice. I am still listening to an old album, her first self titled album, that I could never get enough of. She is a beautiful young lady and I REALLLY love her music. She rocks left, right and center. Love her, love her, love her!
She is 31. She got married at 22 and her husband, Jason Rae, died when she was 28. He had taken an overdose of drugs so yah. She became a widow at a very young age, tjo!
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Anyway heres to Monday again. I am praying for an awesome week and wish ya'll the same

Zino! (Tooth Ache)

ARGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!

My wisdom tooth is KILLING me!!!!!!!! Thing is I swallowed a filling last year. Now understand me when I say I have had this filling since I was 6 or 7? Ok, 14 years later this filling must have gotten tired of all the cadburys, mazadzadama, kendi keke, scrumcious cheese cake (yum...flip I am on a diet) and all the divine comfort food you can think of. Now its corroding. I dont know why i left it for so long!


Now I am in a good amount of pain.


I want the dentist and I want him now! On Saturday evening, myself, mr. boyfriend and my two teenage girls where preparing to go for some KFC (my diet only started today if you were wondering) and I was starving so i decided to chow on some bread before hitting the road. Good old tea nechingwa chine majarini. So I took a grown woman size bite and sipped on the tea. In my head it happened in slow motion. I chewed once...twice....then on the third chew, the bread did a summersault in my mouth and landed on my already rotting hole. I felt pain at its intensity and I cried out so loud mr. boyfriend took a while to get to me. And the fact that he took his freaking time made me cry much louder!


Poor guy didnt know what to say. There is a big chance the neighbours could have heard me coz I screamed and then I cried like what those women do at Zim funerals. Maiweeeeeee!


What a good start to my diet, now I cant eat anything at all!

But hey we did go to KFC after all and yes I had streetwise two! I wasnt gonna let a stupid tooth get in the way of my cravings. I chewed with one side but today, eissssh, today I cant even drink water without cringing.


Stupid tooth.

The Jesus kinda Love

I,
love the way you love with a love unlike any kinda love
I,
Run to you my safe haven
And,
When the hitches and glitches of life toughen
When the world seems to offer me no solution
And,
Amid those times that I can't trust my intuition
I,
Run to sit witchu and,
Discuss witchu 'bout...
Or rather,
I run to you and,
Cry on you and,
Tug on you begging you to,
Gimme that kinda love that loves only the way you can love,
That kinda love that leaves me loving the ones I once thought unlovable,
I,
Want that kinda love that smiles at strangers driving the latest Range Rovers, jus kidding
That kinda love makes me be the exact me you thought of when you made me.
Sometimes I,
Wanna strive to attain your perfection
To see you reflection,
When I look in the mirror,
I,
Wanna be molded in your structure,
Folded in your stature
Become some'in like your statue
I,
Wanna live for your pleasure
Forgive more than ten times
Love with your measure.
I,
love the way you love with a love unlike any kinda love
Your endless love

PrOvOkal >>> All4Christ

Monday Blues...

• I dont know where to start on my desk


• I wish I had slept early last night


• Didn't pack enough lunch and didn't carry my card


• This coffee don't taste right, its finished now (I think the milk was off, YUCK!)


• I want my boyfriend to hug me and kiss my forehead (makes me feel...I cant explain it)


• I just found out I cant get a drivers licence in SA coz I am a foreigner, so i need to go back kumusha (home) to get an international one.


• I dont have enough leave days to go back home to do the above :(


• Might not achive my goal of driving this year (ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH)


• This fancy Yardley lip gloss burns! Thats why my friend, Nkebe yes you, swaped it for my cheap Clicks brand (Essence), which never burns but still does its job! I hate you right now friend!


• Period pain (need I say more)


• Getting paid this week but it seems so far!


• I have run out of roll on :( but I jacked my little sister's Shower to Shower (works for a minute only, where is that freakin pay day?)

But on the other hand, God is still the same. Woke up this morning and bathed with warm water and soap.

I was literally about to break the body cream container to be able to get a little bit of the remaining cream out of the bottle.

Kissed my baby bye, and she looks adorable in high school uniform :). And my baby sis makes me laugh every morning coz her voice is at its deepest early morn. We make a great tag team when it comes to jokes. Luv this bunch.

Arrived safely to work.

And I still have a job.

Have a God filled day.

Are ready for.....

Well well, more of endless lists of resolutions. Sad to say I never went through with most of my 2009 ones. I told my self I was gonna shop less and save more. Unlike my "perfectly, disciplined, non shopping friends" I couldn't go through with it. I am a SuCkEr for nice things! Big and small, clothes or gifts! I got absolutely go all out when I am shopping. I never settle for less, I'm sorry ok! If people are thinking "Oh my gosh, she is so reckless" while reading this then kiss my black chipped nail polished foot! Coz that's the way I is! Ok now that I have let you have a mild dose of my mini tantrums, I'll let u in on some of the things I had made resolutions for 2010

• To not make too many promises at once

Maybe I am the only one in the world that's stupid enough, and a big people pleaser, that I make 85 promises to 85 different people scheduled at the same time on the same day! I hate myself for that!! No, seriously people. Let me tell you about how pathetic I made someone elses Christmas become..

It was a beautiful day on the 24th of Dec in 2009. I was walking with Mr. Boyfriend...*sigh* and then his friend since they were kids, appeared from a nearby corner. He said he was gonna make Christmas dinner and it was gonna be me and mr. man and him and his girl. Just the four of us.

I say to him nah we can make it dude we are definitely coming! But on Christmas day I was hosting a braai at my house (note he didn't know this), all expenses on me (don't talk to me about the January disease please). So i was thinking to myself how i was gonna work this, I had more than 25 people coming at house (tiny apartment God forbid!) and they were suppose to be all gone by 5 then the dinner was gonna be at 6, right so I had this planned right? Wrong! People only started leaving after 7. Yah you guessed it. I didn't go to the dinner or worse yet, "we" didn't go! And i was too much a chicken to even call and apologise.

Lets just say things are still a bit tense. That's just one of the million things I make endless promises for just by the way. NOT a good move!

• To be a good girlfriend

I am a good loving girlfriend! I am! Now leave me alone!

• To eat less

Now listen to me carefully, this is not a promise. I Lurrrrrvvv me food. But I know its not healthy. And me being the not so active person I am (sleeping being the 2nd hobby after food) doesn't help. I really need to cut down on those Spur Buffalo Wings....*drool*, KFC Hawaiian burgers...., its gonna be hard. But hey I gotta look fab for my girls wedding in October. Denise you owe me BIG time dude!

• To work harder

I don't like the fact that i can easily get comfortable! I need to pull up me socks and not take the job I love so much for granted! And I need to get into college fast!!

Last but not least, the best one...

• To grow closer to God

He has been awfully good to me and honestly I think sometimes as human beings we don't recognise the small wonderful things He has placed in our lives. I love Him, I truly do. Lord, do as You please with me. I offer myself as a living sacrifice this year. May all that I do be soaked in Your magnificent blessings...