Zino! (Tooth Ache)

ARGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH!

My wisdom tooth is KILLING me!!!!!!!! Thing is I swallowed a filling last year. Now understand me when I say I have had this filling since I was 6 or 7? Ok, 14 years later this filling must have gotten tired of all the cadburys, mazadzadama, kendi keke, scrumcious cheese cake (yum...flip I am on a diet) and all the divine comfort food you can think of. Now its corroding. I dont know why i left it for so long!


Now I am in a good amount of pain.


I want the dentist and I want him now! On Saturday evening, myself, mr. boyfriend and my two teenage girls where preparing to go for some KFC (my diet only started today if you were wondering) and I was starving so i decided to chow on some bread before hitting the road. Good old tea nechingwa chine majarini. So I took a grown woman size bite and sipped on the tea. In my head it happened in slow motion. I chewed once...twice....then on the third chew, the bread did a summersault in my mouth and landed on my already rotting hole. I felt pain at its intensity and I cried out so loud mr. boyfriend took a while to get to me. And the fact that he took his freaking time made me cry much louder!


Poor guy didnt know what to say. There is a big chance the neighbours could have heard me coz I screamed and then I cried like what those women do at Zim funerals. Maiweeeeeee!


What a good start to my diet, now I cant eat anything at all!

But hey we did go to KFC after all and yes I had streetwise two! I wasnt gonna let a stupid tooth get in the way of my cravings. I chewed with one side but today, eissssh, today I cant even drink water without cringing.


Stupid tooth.

The Jesus kinda Love

I,
love the way you love with a love unlike any kinda love
I,
Run to you my safe haven
And,
When the hitches and glitches of life toughen
When the world seems to offer me no solution
And,
Amid those times that I can't trust my intuition
I,
Run to sit witchu and,
Discuss witchu 'bout...
Or rather,
I run to you and,
Cry on you and,
Tug on you begging you to,
Gimme that kinda love that loves only the way you can love,
That kinda love that leaves me loving the ones I once thought unlovable,
I,
Want that kinda love that smiles at strangers driving the latest Range Rovers, jus kidding
That kinda love makes me be the exact me you thought of when you made me.
Sometimes I,
Wanna strive to attain your perfection
To see you reflection,
When I look in the mirror,
I,
Wanna be molded in your structure,
Folded in your stature
Become some'in like your statue
I,
Wanna live for your pleasure
Forgive more than ten times
Love with your measure.
I,
love the way you love with a love unlike any kinda love
Your endless love

PrOvOkal >>> All4Christ

Monday Blues...

• I dont know where to start on my desk


• I wish I had slept early last night


• Didn't pack enough lunch and didn't carry my card


• This coffee don't taste right, its finished now (I think the milk was off, YUCK!)


• I want my boyfriend to hug me and kiss my forehead (makes me feel...I cant explain it)


• I just found out I cant get a drivers licence in SA coz I am a foreigner, so i need to go back kumusha (home) to get an international one.


• I dont have enough leave days to go back home to do the above :(


• Might not achive my goal of driving this year (ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH)


• This fancy Yardley lip gloss burns! Thats why my friend, Nkebe yes you, swaped it for my cheap Clicks brand (Essence), which never burns but still does its job! I hate you right now friend!


• Period pain (need I say more)


• Getting paid this week but it seems so far!


• I have run out of roll on :( but I jacked my little sister's Shower to Shower (works for a minute only, where is that freakin pay day?)

But on the other hand, God is still the same. Woke up this morning and bathed with warm water and soap.

I was literally about to break the body cream container to be able to get a little bit of the remaining cream out of the bottle.

Kissed my baby bye, and she looks adorable in high school uniform :). And my baby sis makes me laugh every morning coz her voice is at its deepest early morn. We make a great tag team when it comes to jokes. Luv this bunch.

Arrived safely to work.

And I still have a job.

Have a God filled day.

Are ready for.....

Well well, more of endless lists of resolutions. Sad to say I never went through with most of my 2009 ones. I told my self I was gonna shop less and save more. Unlike my "perfectly, disciplined, non shopping friends" I couldn't go through with it. I am a SuCkEr for nice things! Big and small, clothes or gifts! I got absolutely go all out when I am shopping. I never settle for less, I'm sorry ok! If people are thinking "Oh my gosh, she is so reckless" while reading this then kiss my black chipped nail polished foot! Coz that's the way I is! Ok now that I have let you have a mild dose of my mini tantrums, I'll let u in on some of the things I had made resolutions for 2010

• To not make too many promises at once

Maybe I am the only one in the world that's stupid enough, and a big people pleaser, that I make 85 promises to 85 different people scheduled at the same time on the same day! I hate myself for that!! No, seriously people. Let me tell you about how pathetic I made someone elses Christmas become..

It was a beautiful day on the 24th of Dec in 2009. I was walking with Mr. Boyfriend...*sigh* and then his friend since they were kids, appeared from a nearby corner. He said he was gonna make Christmas dinner and it was gonna be me and mr. man and him and his girl. Just the four of us.

I say to him nah we can make it dude we are definitely coming! But on Christmas day I was hosting a braai at my house (note he didn't know this), all expenses on me (don't talk to me about the January disease please). So i was thinking to myself how i was gonna work this, I had more than 25 people coming at house (tiny apartment God forbid!) and they were suppose to be all gone by 5 then the dinner was gonna be at 6, right so I had this planned right? Wrong! People only started leaving after 7. Yah you guessed it. I didn't go to the dinner or worse yet, "we" didn't go! And i was too much a chicken to even call and apologise.

Lets just say things are still a bit tense. That's just one of the million things I make endless promises for just by the way. NOT a good move!

• To be a good girlfriend

I am a good loving girlfriend! I am! Now leave me alone!

• To eat less

Now listen to me carefully, this is not a promise. I Lurrrrrvvv me food. But I know its not healthy. And me being the not so active person I am (sleeping being the 2nd hobby after food) doesn't help. I really need to cut down on those Spur Buffalo Wings....*drool*, KFC Hawaiian burgers...., its gonna be hard. But hey I gotta look fab for my girls wedding in October. Denise you owe me BIG time dude!

• To work harder

I don't like the fact that i can easily get comfortable! I need to pull up me socks and not take the job I love so much for granted! And I need to get into college fast!!

Last but not least, the best one...

• To grow closer to God

He has been awfully good to me and honestly I think sometimes as human beings we don't recognise the small wonderful things He has placed in our lives. I love Him, I truly do. Lord, do as You please with me. I offer myself as a living sacrifice this year. May all that I do be soaked in Your magnificent blessings...

As we forgive those who trespass against us?

I was sitting alone in a park one day, about two years ago or something. I had had a brawl (as usual) with my mum and decided to walk out on her before I had said the wrong thing, I prefer to call it 'control' (as rude as it may seem even after exchanging a few words its always better to walk out and be the "coward" before you say very hurtful stuff.) So there was a park very close to my house and i decided i am going to take a walk and let the breeze erase any memory of what had just happened. Still don't know why I am not fit coz I have taken so many walks in my life and me and the breeze we tight like that (story for some other time).

So now I am chilling in the park at like 14:30 or 15:00hrs and i decide well my boyfriend lives right across the park so let me text him to come chill with me. As I was amid the text, two men stood on either side of me. Don't ask me how they got there coz I have no idea. One was holding a knife and another a gun and all they said is give us your cellphone. I'm like oh hell no! Ima give you my fist that's what i will give you!! Just kidding. My heart was pounding so fast I thought I was dying and you know what i said to the dudes, i said "Can I at least take my sim card?" lol. And they allowed me to take my sim card. I was so scared I think I peed my pants with every word I spoke. Then they asked me if I had money on me, I said no. They started to search me and they touched me so wrong I still cringe at the thought of it. They found a R10 note on me and they said 'why did you lie to us?' My extent of shock was at its peak I found myself unable to speak.

Then they said I must run. I mean you found me sitting there and you take my phone and the only money I had then you ask me to run from my spot. Dude what happened to respect? Its my spot and you found me there! You run! Coz if I call my boyfriend's brothers (who live an eyes stretch from where I was sitting) you will be toast Mr. And if I had called my bf's brothers on time I promise they would have been toast. But I would have said all the above mentioned if I had the voice at that time and if my pants weren't so soaking wet. So you guessed it, I wobbled my way away (obviously couldn't run). Went straight to my bf's house and I was hyperventilating . I couldn't breath, I couldn't talk, I just had tears running down my face and that was my first encounter with a robbery.

But today I ask myself how much have I robbed from Christ? I don't have a right to hold on to unforgiveness. I don't! You don't! How many times have I robbed Christ of His time? of His tithe? of His temple (the body he gave me to take care of)? How many times have I robbed Him of His worship? How different am I from these two man that came to me and assaulted me? In the spiritual I would say I am worse.

The blood of Christ spilt for my transgressions and for their transgressions. They don't know any better. They need to find Christ and maybe, just maybe, what they did to me they will use as a testimony for the Glory of God.

I got more stories ya'll. Keep watching for part 2 and 3 of "As we forgive those who trespass against us.."

But for now, let go of that unnecessary hurt you are causing yourself by holding on to unforgiveness. Its unnecessary.

PrOvOkal ya'll. ALL 4 Christ

"The Big Chop" has finally happened!

Well I did it peeps, I cut my hair bald!! Talk about guts! Whoooopie!! I love it, Mr. Man loves it, "so-called-friends" like it (jus kidding Nkebe and Dee, you not even "so called"!) and I have fallen head over heels in love with my head! I have a nice one I must say. Well it hasn't been easy coz i was still deciding and then just this Saturday I decided it was the day! Just incase you are wondering, thats not me in pic, jus an example of what my hair looks like.

I had to go get my glasses adjusted coz with a perfect nose like mine ordinary just don't cut it! Mr.Man escorted me to the optometrist and on our way back we was discussing if I really wanted to do this. Isn't there another option babe, he asked. Well babe, if I want that hot fro I better get to cutting this mess out. And well as you might have guessed it, first stop was the barber as soon as we got into the hood. He sat next to me and you know he said the craziest thing jokingly, he said "babe, as soon as the first drop of shaved hair hits the ground, its over!" And I'm on some 'thanks babe then I can finally hook up with that hot guy I always tell u about!' LOL. I did say that. And as surely as I love my chocolate with coffee (weird but I really do, love the way it melts in my mouth with the coffee) with the first hair that dropped, he walked out of the shop leaving me alone in the shop alone with a bunch of people that thought i was crazy for cutting my hair! People I don't even know! You know those kind of people that have opinions even for the things that don't concern them? Worst of all they have never met me and they know nothing about me for all they know I must have cancer or something that's why I am cutting my hair.

Anyway he walks out and he doesn't come back! My luck, now I could really hook up with that hot guy, just kidding! Well I thought its ok I will just surprise him. So the barber dude left like a centimeter of hair. I thought ok we could rock this. I get to his house and all his brothers call me mad, just like Denise did! (I will have enough hair for braids for your wedding Dee so don't worry). He wasn't so ....ummm....well he thought it was ok.

Come Sunday afternoon, I decide I am shaving this thing bald! And I did, and he actually loved it. Someone said to me I look like the bald version of Whoopie Goldberg, I took it as a compliment. I honestly did. Whoopie is my girl and I must be one funny monkey to be compared to Whoopie.

I then got pierced, to enhance the look, on my ears for like the 100th time in my life. And I pierced my ear trangus, yes my ear cartilage. And the usual two normal holes for like the millionth time now coz it always closes! The cartilage is an unusual place so I like it. So I got 3 piercings and well you can say I am looking summerish, sexy. Bald head and all.

I cant get the damn pics on the PC so I am getting frustrated! I look like that girl on that pic on top just that I am darker and more nerdy kinda hot looking. She's cute :)

But hey, being the poet I am, I think I am rocking this look. I think I am quite hot bald.

My journey to 'Fro'radise starts. Walk with me xxx

P.S. Thats my girl Michelle, rocking the fro since the day we met!

Natural.

Been a while since I posted. Has been quite hectic and sadly I won't be updating my blog everyday like before. But before we shed tears and start throwing our toys out the coat, let me hook ya'll up on whats been on my mind. I have hair disasters (my buddies will gladly nail me on that). Cant maintain a hairstyle. I get bored and irritated and I end up tying my beloved head scarf (which suits me) into a neat ball on the nape of my neck. I don't know if you can see the pic in your head but hey.

Then I get criticized for being careless with my hair by friends who "care" (whatever!) for me. So now, I have decided to make it official... I'm going NATURAL people!! I am so excited. Those relaxers were messing up my hair. Now it will be no more. And anyway natural is quite hot. Michell my girl has been keeping real by staying natural. I'm so with you now girl! As for Nkebe, why in the world did you relax your beautiful fro?! Don't hate when I start looking soulful and hot in my fro!! (Dunno how I will pull it off coz my hair is quite thin, but hey, its worth the try!)

And yes I will still rock my braids 3/4s of the year! Lil problem though, apparently if you decide to go natural, like i have, you have to do the "big-chop" in other words, go bald! chiskop! zuda! muparavara! And well i really don't mind stating over, its Mr. Man that minds. Damn he will freak out if i told him I'm going short. Ima need prayers to talk to this dude! So the deal is, I tell him today when i see him, then will let ya'll know of what I would have gone through to convince him.

Hey, next time I update my blog, I will try post my before and after pics.

:D cant wait!!

Word xxx (That girl in the above pic is mos def rockin that afro! What do you think?)