As we forgive those who trespass against us?

I was sitting alone in a park one day, about two years ago or something. I had had a brawl (as usual) with my mum and decided to walk out on her before I had said the wrong thing, I prefer to call it 'control' (as rude as it may seem even after exchanging a few words its always better to walk out and be the "coward" before you say very hurtful stuff.) So there was a park very close to my house and i decided i am going to take a walk and let the breeze erase any memory of what had just happened. Still don't know why I am not fit coz I have taken so many walks in my life and me and the breeze we tight like that (story for some other time).

So now I am chilling in the park at like 14:30 or 15:00hrs and i decide well my boyfriend lives right across the park so let me text him to come chill with me. As I was amid the text, two men stood on either side of me. Don't ask me how they got there coz I have no idea. One was holding a knife and another a gun and all they said is give us your cellphone. I'm like oh hell no! Ima give you my fist that's what i will give you!! Just kidding. My heart was pounding so fast I thought I was dying and you know what i said to the dudes, i said "Can I at least take my sim card?" lol. And they allowed me to take my sim card. I was so scared I think I peed my pants with every word I spoke. Then they asked me if I had money on me, I said no. They started to search me and they touched me so wrong I still cringe at the thought of it. They found a R10 note on me and they said 'why did you lie to us?' My extent of shock was at its peak I found myself unable to speak.

Then they said I must run. I mean you found me sitting there and you take my phone and the only money I had then you ask me to run from my spot. Dude what happened to respect? Its my spot and you found me there! You run! Coz if I call my boyfriend's brothers (who live an eyes stretch from where I was sitting) you will be toast Mr. And if I had called my bf's brothers on time I promise they would have been toast. But I would have said all the above mentioned if I had the voice at that time and if my pants weren't so soaking wet. So you guessed it, I wobbled my way away (obviously couldn't run). Went straight to my bf's house and I was hyperventilating . I couldn't breath, I couldn't talk, I just had tears running down my face and that was my first encounter with a robbery.

But today I ask myself how much have I robbed from Christ? I don't have a right to hold on to unforgiveness. I don't! You don't! How many times have I robbed Christ of His time? of His tithe? of His temple (the body he gave me to take care of)? How many times have I robbed Him of His worship? How different am I from these two man that came to me and assaulted me? In the spiritual I would say I am worse.

The blood of Christ spilt for my transgressions and for their transgressions. They don't know any better. They need to find Christ and maybe, just maybe, what they did to me they will use as a testimony for the Glory of God.

I got more stories ya'll. Keep watching for part 2 and 3 of "As we forgive those who trespass against us.."

But for now, let go of that unnecessary hurt you are causing yourself by holding on to unforgiveness. Its unnecessary.

PrOvOkal ya'll. ALL 4 Christ

"The Big Chop" has finally happened!

Well I did it peeps, I cut my hair bald!! Talk about guts! Whoooopie!! I love it, Mr. Man loves it, "so-called-friends" like it (jus kidding Nkebe and Dee, you not even "so called"!) and I have fallen head over heels in love with my head! I have a nice one I must say. Well it hasn't been easy coz i was still deciding and then just this Saturday I decided it was the day! Just incase you are wondering, thats not me in pic, jus an example of what my hair looks like.

I had to go get my glasses adjusted coz with a perfect nose like mine ordinary just don't cut it! Mr.Man escorted me to the optometrist and on our way back we was discussing if I really wanted to do this. Isn't there another option babe, he asked. Well babe, if I want that hot fro I better get to cutting this mess out. And well as you might have guessed it, first stop was the barber as soon as we got into the hood. He sat next to me and you know he said the craziest thing jokingly, he said "babe, as soon as the first drop of shaved hair hits the ground, its over!" And I'm on some 'thanks babe then I can finally hook up with that hot guy I always tell u about!' LOL. I did say that. And as surely as I love my chocolate with coffee (weird but I really do, love the way it melts in my mouth with the coffee) with the first hair that dropped, he walked out of the shop leaving me alone in the shop alone with a bunch of people that thought i was crazy for cutting my hair! People I don't even know! You know those kind of people that have opinions even for the things that don't concern them? Worst of all they have never met me and they know nothing about me for all they know I must have cancer or something that's why I am cutting my hair.

Anyway he walks out and he doesn't come back! My luck, now I could really hook up with that hot guy, just kidding! Well I thought its ok I will just surprise him. So the barber dude left like a centimeter of hair. I thought ok we could rock this. I get to his house and all his brothers call me mad, just like Denise did! (I will have enough hair for braids for your wedding Dee so don't worry). He wasn't so ....ummm....well he thought it was ok.

Come Sunday afternoon, I decide I am shaving this thing bald! And I did, and he actually loved it. Someone said to me I look like the bald version of Whoopie Goldberg, I took it as a compliment. I honestly did. Whoopie is my girl and I must be one funny monkey to be compared to Whoopie.

I then got pierced, to enhance the look, on my ears for like the 100th time in my life. And I pierced my ear trangus, yes my ear cartilage. And the usual two normal holes for like the millionth time now coz it always closes! The cartilage is an unusual place so I like it. So I got 3 piercings and well you can say I am looking summerish, sexy. Bald head and all.

I cant get the damn pics on the PC so I am getting frustrated! I look like that girl on that pic on top just that I am darker and more nerdy kinda hot looking. She's cute :)

But hey, being the poet I am, I think I am rocking this look. I think I am quite hot bald.

My journey to 'Fro'radise starts. Walk with me xxx

P.S. Thats my girl Michelle, rocking the fro since the day we met!

Natural.

Been a while since I posted. Has been quite hectic and sadly I won't be updating my blog everyday like before. But before we shed tears and start throwing our toys out the coat, let me hook ya'll up on whats been on my mind. I have hair disasters (my buddies will gladly nail me on that). Cant maintain a hairstyle. I get bored and irritated and I end up tying my beloved head scarf (which suits me) into a neat ball on the nape of my neck. I don't know if you can see the pic in your head but hey.

Then I get criticized for being careless with my hair by friends who "care" (whatever!) for me. So now, I have decided to make it official... I'm going NATURAL people!! I am so excited. Those relaxers were messing up my hair. Now it will be no more. And anyway natural is quite hot. Michell my girl has been keeping real by staying natural. I'm so with you now girl! As for Nkebe, why in the world did you relax your beautiful fro?! Don't hate when I start looking soulful and hot in my fro!! (Dunno how I will pull it off coz my hair is quite thin, but hey, its worth the try!)

And yes I will still rock my braids 3/4s of the year! Lil problem though, apparently if you decide to go natural, like i have, you have to do the "big-chop" in other words, go bald! chiskop! zuda! muparavara! And well i really don't mind stating over, its Mr. Man that minds. Damn he will freak out if i told him I'm going short. Ima need prayers to talk to this dude! So the deal is, I tell him today when i see him, then will let ya'll know of what I would have gone through to convince him.

Hey, next time I update my blog, I will try post my before and after pics.

:D cant wait!!

Word xxx (That girl in the above pic is mos def rockin that afro! What do you think?)

Girls Night Out

Every chic needs the break. Away from office chaos, boyfriends and all that stuff (a friend of mine cannot stay away from her boyfriend so that doesn't apply!). There are times that ladies just need to chill and well, talk about girl stuff.

Last night I was chilling with two of my very, very close girlfriends (hope the other one doesn't get big headed about the fact that I called her close), I love these girls, and we ordered a take out and just sat and watched a movie. It was so relaxing I must say. It was different from every other night that I am stuck in my apartment, sleeping or eating. We talked about hair, about food, about dresses you know the whole lot and we dissed each other (my favorite part!!)

Sometimes life at work can get really overwhelming and its all just a routine in the end, work then home, work then home, work the home. That's just boring. A night off can do wonders to a persons mood the next day (I am living proof). Just a few ideas of my own on what you might get up to:

• Spa Night
• Karaoke night (It doesn't matter how horrible your voice sounds)
• Chef's night (Teach each other something different to cook, something the other doesn't know)
• Dress up (Its not childish, actually very fun, add make up to make it more exciting)
• Just sit and talk :) there is no harm with a little bonding.

Why don't you just treat yourself today? Have a "girl" night out on your own. Get home from work, soak yourself in those bath salts and oils that you are saving up for a special occasion coz today is a special occasion! Wear your favorite panties and PJ's, play soft music in the background and relax. You deserve it coz you hot!

Oh and my friend went to see her boyfriend right after we had finished a perfect night out! Talk about cute xxx

I am a sucker for great sneakers ^-^,

Missy Elliot - Respect Me sneakers

Pharrell's BAPE

Royalty Black n White nike

Bape Trackstar

Now thats a nice tweed sneaker

UG Nikes!

Addidas...yum yum

:) Eish!

You gotta appreciate a nice sneakAhh

To be or not to be?

What ever happened to faith? What ever happened to believing that "believing" is the first step to having? You know many people underestimate themselves in order not to get hurt. They don't believe that they can do something. So here is the norm, "If I don't believe it will happen and it doesn't happen then I avoid being hurt. But if I do believe it will happen then it doesn't happen, then I will have wounds to nurse. I don't want that" Hey you?! If you do believe then there is no doubt that it will happen! If you work at it will happen. One speaker at the J - Activation that passed, his name is Nic van Tonder, said that if God can hold the universe that he created in the palm of His hand, how big are the blocks of gold that He used to pave heaven?

How can we find difficulty with believing and trusting the God who created the heavens and the earth? Beats me.

Nothing is impossible if you believe. I totally believe that. There is so much that has happened in my life coz of the faith I have. You just have to choose whether you are going to live in a pitiful comfortable state or no matter how things may look in the natural, you will stand with your head high and believe that all things will turn for the best. Trust me they always do.




"Nothing has power over me other than that which I give it, through my conscious thoughts" Anthony Robbins.

"Change the way you think and change will come when you least think" (:the last one is my quote :)

The Love of Christ, beyond measure..

Today is the day our Church has been waiting for! J - Activation!!! Its a conference revolving around the fact that Christ is no perfect stranger, and if you think He is, then come meet Him here at J - Activation @ The Active Church. From the 18th to the 20th of September 2009. There is going to be life changing speakers from different churches and loads and loads of exciting entertainment. Amazing worship and breathtaking Activation sessions

This is gonna bless peoples socks off!

All for Christ ya'll

PrOvOkaL

Today I chose to...

You know sometimes I feel like we control the happenings of our day to day lives emotionally. I am not one to let feelings affect my day to day life (I hate to brag) . I have had so many incidents that I have reacted in a totally different manner to what the one inflicting the torment would expect, a shock to the 2nd party most times. My main reason being that, at that moment I can chose to get offended with what I am being told or I can take it a a learning phase.

Its not like I don't have emotion and I am numb, but I wont let a person spoil my whole mood because of a stupid comment or because I am just stubborn.

I have started a thing with myself where I write down what I want to do each day something that will cheer me up or cheer someone else up. And cheering someone up makes me so happy. As time goes by, you will find that people enjoy you and want to hang around you. Let me give you examples of what I tell myself each day.

Today I chose to

• Not let anything or anyone get to me


• Smile the whole day


• Make coffee for my boss a surprise


• Look for the best in everyone


• Take rebuke as a lesson


• Wear my best shoe coz tomorrow isn't promised


• Make the best food for my visitors


• Do more listening and less talking


• Forgive the person that bumped me in the mall and didn't apologise


• Admire how beautiful that girl is and not find flaws

I could go on and on. Try it! at the end of the day, you will feel so good tomorrow you will chose to do something you never dared to do ;) Like smsing a friend and telling them how awesome they are. Be a smile maker!

"If you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change" Wayne Dyer

One step at a time...

My best friend is getting married next year, wow! I am so excited for her. Countless times we have gone to the shops window shopping for her wedding dress and ring and all that stuff you know. And we still are. She and her boyfriend could get married now if they could if it wasn't for the financial strains. I don't blame them, took them a lot to get to where they are to day (and so much self control I could never attain!)

I was just day dreaming one day of MY wedding, and not hers for once, and it was hard to imagine myself giving me over to a dude for the rest of my life. Ofcoz i want a life partner and I don't wanna be old and lonely one day. But when does one decide "This is it, we getting married"?? I know so many sisters that have been in relationships for years and are still waiting for the brother to pop the question, without pressuring him ofcoz. Whats up with dudes and the "M" word? OK fine so people have to taken it one step at a time but what kind of step is a 5 year step! That's a helluva step if you ask me, my leg is getting a bit sore, when we taking the next step??

When is it the perfect timing to get married? All I know is that the brother better have enough for a big dime, one big enough to not even choke me!